slightly left of center thoughts

Now that I finally have some time for myself, I do not know what to do with it! Yes, I’ve been lolling around the whole morning (which is not really whole since I woke up at 11, sigh) trying to figure out what I should do first. You know when you are at the mercy of deadlines and urgent ‘must-do’s’ you instantly know what to prioritize first, but when that time comes that you have some temporary liberty from time and work constraints, you get confused what should come first since the loaned time available is so limited and so precious. Now, am I making a good use of my time?

Last night was the beginning of my rest days, so to speak, and I have asked almost all my friends to accompany me in me well-deserved night out. Lo and behold! Nobody was available. In fact, only three responded to my text messages out of the dozen I sent, while the rest ignored me. No, I’m not complaining or anything, I just find it mysterious. Where have all the people gone? Why is there a 360 degrees turn of events? Last week, when I was at the throes of self-inflicted difficulties (it’s my fault why I had difficult projects!) and mind-numbing research, all these guys were asking me to go out and now that I’m feeling breezy and light and confident to have fun, they are gone.

Perhaps it’s God’s will so that I can watch “The Last Samurai” at HBO heehee…and speaking of the film, I found it really beautiful, and I remembered that I always wanted to go to Japan ( I even joked to my mother that I’ll have voice lessons so that I can work as a singer, which I guess is the easiest way to go there)…

So anyway, after spending the rest of my evening dressed in gimmick clothes while watching cable, because my supposed kagimiks did not arrive, I began to ponder on my next priorities. I will study for my TMAs (for UPOU). Period. Maybe that was fate’s way of reminding me of my other obligations. Okay, I understand. Fate can be so KJ. But it’s okay, really, I do understand. 

~ by frozenmocha on July 22, 2006.